I have both kittens now, and while I thought they were adjusting nicely, I am slowly figuring out that they're not. Mozzarella hisses and hides. It is absolutely breaking my heart. She was so cute and cuddly 18 hours ago. I'm sure she's nervous and trying to get adjusted, but Cheddar and I have so much fun together, I just want her to have fun and cuddle and play with us too! Her eye does look sooooo much better, and I wonder if she's mad at me because I put the medication in her eye. I have to put more medication in, and I'm afraid she's going to bite me or something! *side note: Cheddar just got stuck in some curtains, and his weight pulled them forward, so he was dangling...cutest thing ever* So, I'm going to hang around the homefront today for a bit, so I can try to get everyone adjusted and functioning normally. This picture is from happier times, yesterday afternoon. Although, Mozzie keeps crawling around my Coach purse, so we know she has good taste!
For some reason I am still in contact with Eric. I think I am a bit sadistic that I want to know he hurts just as much as he hurt me. Actually, I want to know that he hurts more. He cheated and lied throughout our entire relationship, so my memory lane walk lately isn't all that positive. It's full of questioning everything that was ever said or done, you know? And I know that there will be a day, and probably very soon, that I don't have any contact with him. And then it will be two..three...you get the picture. He will realize that I'm not that cool, and he doesn't want to win me back, so I guess I'm just using the fact the he does and incorporating it into my healing process. Whether it's right or wrong makes no difference, because I'm an adult and can make those decisions for myself. I guess I'm just naive, because I honestly thought that people could not do this to each other, or could not do it to me once they got to know me. I would NEVER in a million years do this to anyone, and I thought that was a pretty transparent feature about myself. So, recently I'm all about the processing and trying to figure out where I want to go next. Hawaii is sounding pretty good...
2 thoughts on the matter:
He's a jackass and you need to stop talking to him. Continuining to talk to him isn't going to make ANYTHING easier for anyone involved. From this end its like all I see is you constantly ripping off a bandaid....I don't like seeing you do it. Just "ignore" him on Yahoo! and go from there. He is dirt. You don't deserve to play in dirt, Andrea.
How is Mozzie's eye doing???
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