My Life as I see It

Life can be such a crazy tornado can't it? That's kind of how I have been looking at it lately. I look up to the skies often and just envision a tornado (a safe one albeit) that is always working in my favor. A perfect storm of of possibilities, growth, love, and happiness. That may be some, but I firmly believe that if you ask without any strings attached, believe that you can achieve anything you desire, that you will receive. And I do this on a regular basis. I ask for many things each and every day, and now I just patiently believe that they are happening for me, in my own personal tornado, for me to receive when the Universe feels it is right for me.

So, in the interim between my asking and receiving-what to do, what to do...I realize I don't have many habits, but what I really like are working on projects with friends. I like doing favors and helping. Is that a hobby, because really I just wait until someone needs something or asks me to be a Maid of Honor...which has only happened twice. I'm trying my best to be patient. To some I may seem extremely inpatient, and in some cases I am, but really-if I know something is going to happen, I am the most patient person on earth. It's the figuring out the lessons I'm supposed to learn in the meantime that I need to really start concentrating on.

I am constantly living in my head, which isn't always a fun place to be in. I wax and wane on my own abilities and what I feel I deserve. But, believing in the Universe and my tornado helps me. I struggle with so many negative thoughts, and then when I see something magical happen for me I realize that I truly can earn and deserve anything I put my mind to. It's so crazy to see things happen: like my recent promotion at work. Until June of this year I always thought I was mediocre and really just doing the motions with a little bit of ability behind it. Then I was dealing with a hotel that kept dropping the ball and screwing up the simplest things that I realized, hey, maybe I am good at this. Through that so many positive things were put into motion. I received a promotion that only helped with my confidence, and I feel myself learning and growing so much every day, while still understanding that I am in fact skilled and deserved the promotion.

I am am not attempting to do that with other facets in my life. For the month of November I'm dating myself. I don't do enough for myself, and am constantly just waiting to lose weight, waiting for good things to happen, etc. Well-if I apply the principles with my job to my personal life, I can see amazing results and quickly. Which I'm fully intending to do. By dating myself I am trying to treat myself to things I deem important in a relationship, I'm just playing both sides. I'm finding joy in the little things-always preparing my lunches the night before so I'm not rushed in the morning, relaxing at night with some journaling. I'm thinking about trying meditation next, to really get the positive thoughts rolling. I've also been concentrating on my diet and exercise, so I find myself beautiful and attractive. By shining the light on myself instead of others, or even just one person, I hope to show myself and the Universe exactly what I deserve to be treated like. So far "we" have not done much but I'm hoping to go to a movie this weekend :) (which, sidenote, is so far outside of my comfort zone it terrifies me but I'm also excited to actually do it)

I'm not sure if this post makes sense. There will be no rhetorical questions-I know I can do this, and I'm enjoying my life right now. 30, Flirty, and Thriving. Okay-that's not entirely true. I'm awful at flirting. But, I am 30.