The End is in Sight

I don't mean to be a Scrooge..but I'm really glad this year is almost over. It's been a tough one, but I think I've managed to get through it with some good memories, and still in one piece.

I'm still not done with my toothpaste tube, but I have been doing a lot of reflection these last couple of weeks. I think back to August when I started it and all that has changed, and I can only imagine what the next couple of months will bring. Thank Goodness I didn't put that toothpaste in my checked luggage when I went to Dubai, right? Phew!

But, in all seriousness, last Christmas was a nice one, but there are a lot of negative feelings and energy attached to it that I really struggled to let go of this year. I never really felt in the Christmas spirit until about a week ago, but that could be partly due to my work trip taking up two weeks of the Christmas holiday. I'll be so thankful once New Years is over, and the last of the monumental moments from last year will be over, and hopefully the memories replaced. I no longer will have to remember being in love with an alcoholic who didn't want to, but always inevitably did, ruin every occasion that could include alcohol in any form. And hopefully they're replaced with wonderful and supportive family and friends who offer unconditional love and support and made the holidays such a wonderful time! The funny thing is, I thought I had moved past everything that happened with Scott, but I realize that I didn't fully go through all the steps that I needed to. It must have been laying dormant, waiting for the holidays to happen so I can complete this break-up properly :)

I'm looking forward to 2011; I usually have very good odd years and usually just okay even years. My aunt thought that was stupid, but I don't really care. I want to change my perception of even and odd years, but I don't think the patterns I've noticed could in any way or should in any way be described as stupid or silly. I could go through the last ten years of my life and show what I mean, but what's the point? I'm trying to change the way I view my life anyways, so it would be pointless. Ha!

To give an update: I have started a new position at work. I'm still feeling it out, as it comes with a lot of change. But, it did take me to Dubai and is taking me all over the world in the upcoming year. Not all of these are confirmed, but it looks like I might go to the following or have a chance to go to the following in 2011: Cancun, San Francisco, Istanbul, Denver, India. So, it should be an exciting year of travel. Here is hoping my luggage never gets lost again though. That whole ordeal is still not over, and I still have not recovered my luggage.

I have kind of let myself go over the last few months. I now see why or how I let that happen, and I am reversing my old habits and negative thoughts with positive ones. I'm in a wedding this summer, and that will be a good timeframe to set a goal for myself, so I'm excited to get started on concentrating more on myself. I "dated" myself for a month, which was a nice change of pace for a while, to not be able to "Facebook stalk" or think or dwell about anyone from the past. It's funny how you really have to train yourself to not get lost in thought sometime. Well, at least it's funny to someone like me who can get caught up in my own mind for long stretches at a time.

That's about all I know. I just wanted to write a quick blog to see what I deemed important enough to talk about :) Ha! Cheers and salud to 2010 and Woo hoo! to 2011!